Adventures in Fertility

So it's been awhile since I've posted anything.  I've let my sister do most of the posting with her happy news and updates.  I'm just trying to work on being Zen - buddhism says that "wanting" is a negative emotion, so I'm trying not to "want" a baby.  Everyone has lots of advice and I'm just trying to take the advice and not worry about it too much.

We did go through a workup with the fertility doctor.  That consisted of me having blood drawn on two separate occasions, Evan having to provide a "sample" and me having a test called an SIS where they insert a catheter into the cervix and shoot saline into the uterus while performing an ultrasound to check for any blockages in the tubes or visible cysts.  All of our tests came back "normal".  The diagnosis is unexplained infertility with possible Endometriosis.  The possible Endometriosis is based on family history (turns out that my Mom had it and never knew until long after she had the three of us) and possible symptoms (I do get cramps each month, but how am I to say if they're more severe than what other people get.  I don't have any problems functioning when I have them and I know I have friends who are in bed with pain from theirs.).  The problem with Endometriosis is that your symptoms or lack thereof have nothing to do with how severe the Endometriosis is, and the only way they can truly diagnose it is to do a surgery to see if there are, in fact, areas of uterine lining growing outside of the uterus.  Evan & I haven't yet decided if I'll go through with the surgery - for one thing it would mean having to go on the pill for three months before surgery, and for another thing, it's surgery.  The other option the doctor would have us do next if we don't go for the surgery is fertility drugs and insemination.  It seems a little extreme to me to jump straight to insemination - I guess they feel it increases the odds more, but I did send them an email to see if we can try the drugs and trying naturally first.  We'll see what they say.

Beyond that, I don't know.  We'll need to decide if we can come up with the money for adoption (seems like a surer bet then spending a bunch of money for IVF or something that isn't guaranteed) or if we're just going to be a really great Auntie & Uncle to our currently two nephews and our niece that is on the way any day.